Simple Question and Big Confusion

The simple question is:
Am I being loved by someone or Am I in love with someone.?

The confusion is:
Both "someone" are not the same person.

I can't ask the first someone whether she loves me, because she might think her behavior raised such doubts in me, so later she wont behave in the same manner as she behaves now.

I can't propose the second someone, because if she expected a clean friendship out of me, then I will be losing a very good friend in my life.

About my status.... I can't say anything....

Is there any alarm clock embedded in me?

How many times u would have woken up before ur alarm clock starts ringing... I don't know about others, but I am waking up exactly 2-3 mins before my alarm starts shouting. I don't have any important appointment or I don't have any urgency to get up and rush to office. Its just a daily routine to keep an alarm. Now, I keep thinking.... is this any kind of disorder?. How many people would have been affected by this ???. The biggest twist adding to this confusion of mine is.... if i dont keep an alarm i dont wake up at the correct time....... :(